TGIF

It's all I gotta say. Another week has passed by and it's been kind of rough.

My dad is moving today to his new apartment. I never thought it would affect me especially me being 3,000 miles away. November 1987, we moved into that apartment....My mom, my grandmother, my dad and me (I was only 10 years old). Lots of memories many good, some bad. Laughter, jokes, tears, drama, arguments, good news, bad news, that what the walls in that apartment keeps. Now 23 years later, my dad says good bye to the apartment alone. My mom is up in heaven, my grandmother, well, mentally is gone, but physically is in my aunt's house in Massachusetts. Me, I left back in 2001, I was the first to leave that house, but it was always home. It was the place that always welcomed me with open arms no matter what. When I would go home from time to time, my mom will always open that door with the biggest smile ready to give me a hug and a kiss. I miss those days, I miss my mom's kiss, her hug, her telling me "I love you" every time we said good bye.

Today, I sit here reminiscing my life in that 3 bedroom apt. That apartment helped me become the woman I'm today. It was there my mom and mama will talk to me about life, advice, etc. I wish for a day I could go back to that time, I know I wouldn't wanted to end, but to see my mom, talk to her and my grandmother before she got Alzheimer's. I feel that the people that has influenced me the most in my life are gone. My uncle in 2004, My mom in 2009 and My cousin who was like a brother in 2010. My grandmother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's in 2000 and right now she does not recognize anyone, it breaks my heart 'cause her and I had such a strong bond. Time will help heal this wound. Sometimes I wish I could fast forward.